Fine. You win. My first research paper, 10 pages on Revelations and Ragnarok. I thought I could do it and I was wrong. Class is in 2 hours and I have 2 paragraphs, not even a whole page.
So what? You win world. But only for today. The final draft is due next week, and I'll see that this is the best essay I could make. I won't sleep in, because there is no more fear. There's either making it in the big time, or there's failing and failing hard. I know which path I'm going to take, how about you?
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"There's either making it in the big time, or there's failing and failing hard. I know which path I'm going to take, how about you?"
I've actually been struggling a lot with this very problem. Seriously. I went to bed sobbing on Tuesday because of it. It's a big deal.
What's even stranger is that I think it's very important not to be constrained by the rules of an institution when pursuing dreams. It worms into me, though. I get to where I fear a missed report or a grade below an A, and I think that my learning is impaired because of it. And somehow I keep thinking (no doubt because everyone keeps saying) that it's somehow "important" that I "succeed."
My goal is to drop my attachment to the academic system; to get a C, D, or F if need be; to remember that my life is too important to be wounded by the words of others.
I don't want to say that you should or shouldn't write a paper. I don't want to say it's good or bad.
I want to say that failure is not an option. In order to fail you must have a goal, and a goal is 100% arbitrary! It's your invention! Regardless of how the next couple of months go, you will be equally capable of having a happy life, and in this way you will not have failed.
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